So I feel less lonely while I sleep. Which is the most time I spend watching it.

Oh, my grown up son does this. :)

They are out in force on sundays, driving ten under, causing traffic snakes, blocking both lanes, swerving into the bike and opposing lanes. Merging onto highways so slowly that oncoming traffic has to break unexpectedly. So much fun.

I wish I could say this is not relatable. BPD and the way mental healthcare gatekeeping is cruel.

If you ever just want to chat about it, feel free to DM me. Afaik I’m pretty stable for a BPD haver but I can certainly lend an ear.

Are you able to get DBT?

Fellow BPD. I did skim your post history. Your symptoms are taking control daily. Get into treatment. You are in danger of your impulsivity.

For this help to work and not just be another visit to the grippy sock hotel, you have to acknowledge the fucking symptoms are winning at this moment. No, it’s not your fault. No, you aren’t bad. It’s your meatball being silly and it’s unfair. Please take care of yourself.

Once you get there…I reckon this is just personal experience… but I will say the negativity is a lot less intense. Change what you can. When you achieve your dreams that becomes so much easier because you have the energy. There is a lot of peace in that.

I still have my blockbuster card.

Found out she was MAGA. I told her in a few lines why I could no longer be her friend. Then I blocked her. I don’t feel much about it anymore.

Scanning the vein pattern. I had to put my hand on a little platform once at check-in, and then again immediately before I went into the testing area.

When I took my board, I had my phone locked up, my glasses checked, and I had to do a palm scan. We were also filmed and monitored in a little room that felt like a fish tank. If we left for the bathroom we’d lose time and have to do the whole screening over again.