I’ve been on slow-release methylphenidate for a while but am starting to question whether it’s right for me.
The positive effects became apparent very quickly: It helps me getting started with things and finishing them, as well as being more aware of what needs to be done (i.e. taking out the trash). Instead of making me wanting to put chores and errands off it makes me almost eager for tasks and responsibilities, I suddenly want to get things done and be more reliable than I usually am.
So far so good. But I have also noticed that it sort of “untangles” my emotions in general. It makes me feel more “emotionally confident” as in: Instead of ignoring things that I need to work on regarding my mental or emotional state I’m able to perceive / feel more clearly how I feel and it also makes me less reluctant to tackle more difficult emotional matters.
Sometimes it feels like a light is being switched on inside of me and I feel like I can suddenly be or become more easily the best possible version of myself.
Which sounds great but I’ve also noticed that it makes me want to take my meds more often than I should. I’m on 2x20mg atm but I’ve noticed that I’m starting to develop a craving for my meds because of the good feeling they give me.
This makes me worry if these meds are really a good idea for me or if I should switch to something else. Has anyone else had similar experiences?
I think so. It basically makes me feel like when i drink, which is when i feel the most calm confident and focused.
I don’t really like having to take it all the time though. And it stifles creativity which is a little freaky. I haven’t had any for a while becuase I have to call my doctor every month to get it and its embarrassing. And its more expensive than ever now. Plus I can’t have much coffee with it or I get way too amped.
omg yes, it feels very similar to a nice buzz. And another strange effect is that I have also started craving alcohol, I think because of this very reason. My partner can’t drink because of medication they need to take so I pretty much stopped drinking as well and have maybe had a drink on a handful of occasions over the course of the last three years. It didn’t really bother me but now I find myself low-key craving alcohol almost every day.