I found out from a friend of friend there is going to be a large discussion, and it might include discussing options of other places I can live, I know my BPD is bad, and I’m a piece of shit, I mean look how pathethic my post history is.
I’m just upset cause no matter how I cut it mentally its unideal, its better than homeless, but still very depressing.
I’m honestly just done with living, its pain, I enjoy nothing. Everything feels like just checking the box. Nothing is eniohable anymore
Are you able to get DBT?
Its been challenging to find a therpist who practices it and accepts medicaid here.
I wish I could say this is not relatable. BPD and the way mental healthcare gatekeeping is cruel.
If you ever just want to chat about it, feel free to DM me. Afaik I’m pretty stable for a BPD haver but I can certainly lend an ear.