At least I can have that by myself, when I feel like it. Somehow I’ve lost interest about stimulating my genitals. I don’t know if this is because of dysphoria.
Even before estrogen at some point I would rather have other forms of intimacy / pleasure.
Honestly it became hard to me to have an orgasm but the pleasure is way better. Haven’t been able to explore much yet though. But the shaking can happen too (,>﹏<,)
The people sleeping are moving too much during their sleep. It’s to prevent the frame from breaking.
Honestly. I tried to point out how happier I was now and that I already started my transition. Basically they could not dissuade me. I also pointed out how I hoped they would be alright with my transition. And added that my brother and sister already knew and are supportive.
(And… also that my divorce was not a result of my transition but the affirmation of the self - which led to my transition- … I’ve denied my own identity in my previous relationship and prioritized the happiness of my ex-wife and did what I felt was necessary for the couple to work…)
Edit : also I had to try to make them understand what being “trans” meant in simple terms. Because the concept of gender for them was and probably still is just cisgender “female” or “male”.
Honestly, I just made them sit (my parents) and asked them to hear me out and not stop me until I’m done talking. Didn’t go as planned but the result was not the worst. Prepared a text to have a guideline.
I had plan B just in case I was kicked out.
My brother and sister already knew since I knew they would be allies.
The week was long but wait the week-end awesome!
I’ve never thought I could live these feeling again. I think I’m in love again even of I know I can’t be close to that person I’ve seen IRL for the first time… And it made me realised something… How long has it been since I felt this way. Years actually. I’m in the middle a of divorce because my love faded for reasons I’m not gonna extend but I know now why… How did it happen so fast.
And somehow it:'s not even a rebound. I’ve been talking to her before but never thought it would lead to anything over than beingfriends
I’ve been doing pen and paper again. And could talk for hours to another friend which is awesome.
Honestly good and bad things?
I did some things I could never imagine doing. Not gonna extend on that. I have now, what I consider a best-friend. That was not something I have made in ages. I’ve been on a guilt-trip too and had a day where dysphoria was a bit over the top and had some intrusive thought. (Not too hard things, no worries about that)
Meow mrrooww mew… Eepy meow :3